Trying To Forget #MondayBlogs
I try and take one day a week to schedule stuff to my blog bake something and spend a little time with family. Well it is harvest season for beans and planting time for wheat. My husband is working 7 days a week 10 – 12 hours a day. So I have a little more time by myself than normal.
When I am working on my blog I always play music I love and usually sing along. A song by David Allan Coe really got to me this week.
Now I Lay Me Down To Cheat
The part that pisses me off is when he says
“Now I lay me down to cheat
On the woman I love so”
Yeah Right! If the man loved the woman/wife he would not be cheating on her. He may think he loves her but no not really.
I have been the one that worshiped the ground he walked on. Waiting up at nights and worried. I took more physical, mental and emotional abuse than I should have and tried to keep my marriage together.
Yeah I got an excuse on why he thought it was okay to cheat. His response “I was drunk” like that is an excuse. Yes I forgave him because without forgiveness I do not have the right to ask others to forgive me but to give the woman you love and married some lame ass excuse of being drunk? No, that excuse was not good enough for me.
I forgave and kept pushing on. But he had already broken the marriage vow. He is the one who strayed. What is left in a marriage when someone strays? Can a person fully forget?
Honestly I wonder if I will ever forget. It has been 8 years and a song, action or something will bring all the hurt back.
So how do you deal with forgetting the hurt by others?